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{ Noah Eric Woods
FULL NAME::Noah Eric Woods
NICKNAMES:: Fang [pet name]
GENDER::Male
ACTUAL AGE::18
APPARENT AGE::18
SPECIES/RACE::Plus
PREFERRED PRONOUNS:: kitty cat/he/
SEXUAL ORIENTATION::Gay as Canada
NICKNAMES:: Fang [pet name]
GENDER::Male
ACTUAL AGE::18
APPARENT AGE::18
SPECIES/RACE::Plus
PREFERRED PRONOUNS:: kitty cat/he/
SEXUAL ORIENTATION::Gay as Canada
{ APPEARANCE } |
FACECLAIM::Colton haynes NATIONALITY::American HEIGHT:: 6’0 [human]
HAIR::dirty blond [human]
EYES::blue
SKIN:: caucasion
DISTINGUISHING MARKS:: none
APPEARANCE::Noah is 6’0 tall with short dirty blond hair and blue eyes his skin is white with a slight tan to give it a creamy sort of color. Noah liked to wear tight clothing but respectful clothing, he likes dark color clothing as well nothing too bright like black, the only exception is Jeans and white T-shirts. Noah has no scars on his body, Noah seems to walk with grace and agility in his human form which is partly because of his abilities allowing him to have feline agility and acrobatics.
Noah’s tiger form is very big he is 9.5 feet in length and weighs at 140 kgs he has a auburn golden fur coat with black stripes, he has four paws, a tail and canine teeth his eyes become slit like, just like a normal tiger. Noah’s coat is short and it doesn’t shed, it’s very soft and smooth the kind of coat you would like to hug because it’s so soft and warm, his nose is pink and his stripes are black
HAIR::dirty blond [human]
EYES::blue
SKIN:: caucasion
DISTINGUISHING MARKS:: none
APPEARANCE::Noah is 6’0 tall with short dirty blond hair and blue eyes his skin is white with a slight tan to give it a creamy sort of color. Noah liked to wear tight clothing but respectful clothing, he likes dark color clothing as well nothing too bright like black, the only exception is Jeans and white T-shirts. Noah has no scars on his body, Noah seems to walk with grace and agility in his human form which is partly because of his abilities allowing him to have feline agility and acrobatics.
Noah’s tiger form is very big he is 9.5 feet in length and weighs at 140 kgs he has a auburn golden fur coat with black stripes, he has four paws, a tail and canine teeth his eyes become slit like, just like a normal tiger. Noah’s coat is short and it doesn’t shed, it’s very soft and smooth the kind of coat you would like to hug because it’s so soft and warm, his nose is pink and his stripes are black
{ PERSONALITY } |
PERSONALITY:: Noah has no awareness of his own humanity, he is able to string together thoughts, but he disassociates himself from being human he believes he is a tiger. While he is still capable of having human emotions like love and joy, happiness he still feels like he is a house cat instead of a human. If someone has his trust they can easily influence him to do something regardless of moral ambiguities he has no concept of right and wrong.
Noah has a curious streak within him as a tiger he often wonders why the humans do what they do, he is often seen watching those he consider his masters and tries to figure out what the heck they are up to from the simplest of task to the most complicated he will play the observant watcher type, sometimes of course he will participate and there are times when his curiosity will get him in trouble.
Once someone gains Noah’s trust, he will become loyal to them and consider them to be his master/owner. For the most part he will be obedient to them and do as they want, but there will also be times where he acts like a typical feline and just ignore you, along with his loyalty comes a fierce need to protect those he cares about. He will gladly take a bullet for them. There are times when he is over protective, but that is mostly because he is territorial and doesn’t want anyone near whom he considers is his this is most of the time his masters/owners.
Because Noah believes he is a feline he spends all of his time in his tiger form, Noah hates being in his human form but if his owner/master tells him to be in his human form he will obey until he feels it is no longer necessary. Noah has forgotten a great deal of what it means to be human meaning he has forgotten the most basic things like dressing himself or bathing himself properly. He struggles to be in human form and while in it he will become anxious.
Noah seems to act like a typical house cat, he spends hours sleeping anywhere he wants, usually when the people he consider masters/owners sleep he will sleep on their bed with them at their feet. He has a strong aversion to water, when it’s bath day he will become scarce and flee, if he is sprayed with a water spray he will look at the one who sprayed them with water with annoyance and roar in their face before jumping off the furniture and flee. He is quite a handful at times, he is extremely grumpy after a cat nap, when he eats or drinks milk he usually pigs out which gives him the hiccups, he is somewhat of a dofus after finishing his meal his drink bowl will often be on his head. He will crave affection by rubbing against the person’s legs and purring; if he is ignored he will resort to revenge by chewing on a shoe or clawing the furniture.
Noah is also boy crazy, he will stalk the males and watch them when they least suspect it he is attracted to men and will crave affection from them a lot of the time he dreams about receiving affection from men sometimes in sexual forms [he will be human in these dreams] or merely just getting pets and scratches behind the ears. Noah tends to follow dominate alpha male type figures and consider them his true master.
Noah does have a temper that usually comes out when someone he cares about is in trouble when this happens he will be very fierce and difficult to control, he is very aggressive. Noah also dislikes competition especially when it comes to affection, if there is a family pet like a dog or another cat he will not eat it because he knows his master/owners would be pissed, but he will roar and intimidate them Noah always sets out to be #1 pet.
Noah has a very difficult time trusting females as he was abused by his mother, he tends not to like the species or trust them. The only way he will trust a female is if she has saved his life, he will then trust her completely. He is still cautious around other females though even if they are friends with the female that he trusts.
Before Noah became fractured he was pretty much a quiet guy, he was shy and friendly he didn’t really like to stand out he was more along the lines of blending in and being emotionally constipated he struggled to recognize and analyze his emotions. He spent a great deal of his time reading, writing into his journal he was an intelligent kid, somewhere deep inside that kid still exist he is just extremely fractured. LIKES::
Noah has a curious streak within him as a tiger he often wonders why the humans do what they do, he is often seen watching those he consider his masters and tries to figure out what the heck they are up to from the simplest of task to the most complicated he will play the observant watcher type, sometimes of course he will participate and there are times when his curiosity will get him in trouble.
Once someone gains Noah’s trust, he will become loyal to them and consider them to be his master/owner. For the most part he will be obedient to them and do as they want, but there will also be times where he acts like a typical feline and just ignore you, along with his loyalty comes a fierce need to protect those he cares about. He will gladly take a bullet for them. There are times when he is over protective, but that is mostly because he is territorial and doesn’t want anyone near whom he considers is his this is most of the time his masters/owners.
Because Noah believes he is a feline he spends all of his time in his tiger form, Noah hates being in his human form but if his owner/master tells him to be in his human form he will obey until he feels it is no longer necessary. Noah has forgotten a great deal of what it means to be human meaning he has forgotten the most basic things like dressing himself or bathing himself properly. He struggles to be in human form and while in it he will become anxious.
Noah seems to act like a typical house cat, he spends hours sleeping anywhere he wants, usually when the people he consider masters/owners sleep he will sleep on their bed with them at their feet. He has a strong aversion to water, when it’s bath day he will become scarce and flee, if he is sprayed with a water spray he will look at the one who sprayed them with water with annoyance and roar in their face before jumping off the furniture and flee. He is quite a handful at times, he is extremely grumpy after a cat nap, when he eats or drinks milk he usually pigs out which gives him the hiccups, he is somewhat of a dofus after finishing his meal his drink bowl will often be on his head. He will crave affection by rubbing against the person’s legs and purring; if he is ignored he will resort to revenge by chewing on a shoe or clawing the furniture.
Noah is also boy crazy, he will stalk the males and watch them when they least suspect it he is attracted to men and will crave affection from them a lot of the time he dreams about receiving affection from men sometimes in sexual forms [he will be human in these dreams] or merely just getting pets and scratches behind the ears. Noah tends to follow dominate alpha male type figures and consider them his true master.
Noah does have a temper that usually comes out when someone he cares about is in trouble when this happens he will be very fierce and difficult to control, he is very aggressive. Noah also dislikes competition especially when it comes to affection, if there is a family pet like a dog or another cat he will not eat it because he knows his master/owners would be pissed, but he will roar and intimidate them Noah always sets out to be #1 pet.
Noah has a very difficult time trusting females as he was abused by his mother, he tends not to like the species or trust them. The only way he will trust a female is if she has saved his life, he will then trust her completely. He is still cautious around other females though even if they are friends with the female that he trusts.
Before Noah became fractured he was pretty much a quiet guy, he was shy and friendly he didn’t really like to stand out he was more along the lines of blending in and being emotionally constipated he struggled to recognize and analyze his emotions. He spent a great deal of his time reading, writing into his journal he was an intelligent kid, somewhere deep inside that kid still exist he is just extremely fractured. LIKES::
- Milk
- Sleeping
- Men
- watching tv
- Music
- Justin bieber
- Water
- Being in human form
- Obligations
- Food thieves
- Loyal
- Disobedient at own discursion
- Intelligent
- Stealthy
- Feline like agility regardless of form
- Hot men
- Food
- Typical feline attributes
- Short temper
- Too empathetic
{ RACIAL SPECIFICS } |
RANK::Cute and fluffy POWERS::
- Shapeshift into tiger
- Feline senses
- Feline acrobatics
- Quick to anger
- Loose control
- Can’t speak while in tiger form
{ BACKGROUND } |
HOMETOWN:: New YorkPROFESSION::Urban Legend PARENTS:: Elle woods - Mother
Jason woods - father
SIBLINGS::none CHILDREN::none EXTENDED FAMILY:: MARITAL STATUS:: HISTORY:: Noah woods was born on the 18th July his mother was Elle Woods and his father was a man named Jason Woods. Noah was named after his late uncle on his mother side; he was born and raised in North Salem, New York city. Noah’s mother was a self centered woman she was only thought about herself and always placed guilt trip on her husband and Noah, she would always take out her anger on Noah and telling him to go away to leave her alone and she would take every opportunity to put him down and crush his dreams by telling him he wasn’t good enough and he couldn’t achieve his dreams because he didn’t have the contacts. Noah’s father was a good man, but a timid one he never crossed his wife at all. Despite that Noah had a sense of resilience about him he was still somewhat cheerful and he tried even harder to cheer up his mother and get him to love him, but that changed one day when Noah went out on his own to sell a box of chocolate bars to the neighborhood for school. Noah was meant to wait for his mother but he didn’t because of that older kids stole the chocolates from him.
When Noah returned home to tell his mother what happened, she picked up a stick and beat the crap out of him with it over and over despite his tears and begging for his mother to stop, she didn’t and Noah’s father did nothing to stop it. After the beating Noah ran to his room and hid under his bed where he cried himself to sleep. It was a few hours later when his mother burst into his room and dragged him out from under his bed and forced him into the living room where she forced Noah to undress in front of her mother’s friend so her mother could brag to her friend that the marks on his body is what he got for not being good. It was after that day Noah changed he feared his mother more than he loved her. He did what he was told, and when he was told so she never had a reason to beat him again.
The only time Noah received beatings was at school, he was beaten daily because he wasn’t like the other boys he was quieter and friendlier than the other boys. He told his mother and at first his mother would actually talk to the teachers, but nothing ever changed he ended up moving around schools a lot and then his mother eventually gave up and told him “Noah I got my own problems to deal with, fight your own battles” Noah’s mother would play sick mind games, once after fighting with Noah’s father. Elle tried to commit suicide by swallowing all her pills, When Noah told his father what he saw his father made Elle spit it out, after that Noah was afraid to leave his mother alone because she would try to kill herself again.
Both of Noah’s parents never helped him with his homework, and because of that he grew up with a learning disability not being able to do the simple things like grammar or punctuation. They were really homophobic and racist they would speak bad about gays all the time and make fun of them, they would say things like gay people are going to hell, that gay people deserve to be in a mental hospital because their not right in the head. It was around that time Noah discovered he was gay, he would feel remorse for being a sinner he would pray for the gay to go away and when that didn’t happen he promised never to act on those urges and every time he had those thoughts he would hurt himself to reinforce that those thoughts were bad and that he should feel pain.
Noah’s parents would fight a lot and all the time his mother would win, one day when Noah was the age of 15 Noah’s mother waited till her husband went out on a fishing trip and she packed up her bag and made Noah pack up a bag and she ran away taking Noah with her, they left New York City and moved to Gideon city where they rebuilt their life from scratch. Living in a nice house life returned to normal, but being a teenager Noah had those urges all teens get and decided to relieve himself while watching something provocative. Noah thought he was all alone in the house sadly he wasn’t. When his mother entered his room without knocking of course, she caught Noah with his pants down and watching content she considered to be sinful. Noah’s mother beat the crap out of Noah and made him live in the basement, she threw out almost all his possessions and turned his bedroom into a hobby room, she kept him in the basement at all times.
Noah’s mother told the neighbors that Noah was sent to boarding school, and she told the education department she was home schooling him. Noah was fed every other day and was only allowed out for bathroom and shower, other than that he stayed in the basement she would call him a sinner. She would pin the guilt on him making him feel crap for being himself. Now at the age of 18 Noah’s Plus nature was triggered while his mother was taking her anger out on him and he shifted into a tiger and murdered her Noah escaped afterwards and eventually went insane from the grief and guilt he felt and along with the trauma he had been through his mind fractured and believed that he was never a human, but instead a feline.
Jason woods - father
SIBLINGS::none CHILDREN::none EXTENDED FAMILY:: MARITAL STATUS:: HISTORY:: Noah woods was born on the 18th July his mother was Elle Woods and his father was a man named Jason Woods. Noah was named after his late uncle on his mother side; he was born and raised in North Salem, New York city. Noah’s mother was a self centered woman she was only thought about herself and always placed guilt trip on her husband and Noah, she would always take out her anger on Noah and telling him to go away to leave her alone and she would take every opportunity to put him down and crush his dreams by telling him he wasn’t good enough and he couldn’t achieve his dreams because he didn’t have the contacts. Noah’s father was a good man, but a timid one he never crossed his wife at all. Despite that Noah had a sense of resilience about him he was still somewhat cheerful and he tried even harder to cheer up his mother and get him to love him, but that changed one day when Noah went out on his own to sell a box of chocolate bars to the neighborhood for school. Noah was meant to wait for his mother but he didn’t because of that older kids stole the chocolates from him.
When Noah returned home to tell his mother what happened, she picked up a stick and beat the crap out of him with it over and over despite his tears and begging for his mother to stop, she didn’t and Noah’s father did nothing to stop it. After the beating Noah ran to his room and hid under his bed where he cried himself to sleep. It was a few hours later when his mother burst into his room and dragged him out from under his bed and forced him into the living room where she forced Noah to undress in front of her mother’s friend so her mother could brag to her friend that the marks on his body is what he got for not being good. It was after that day Noah changed he feared his mother more than he loved her. He did what he was told, and when he was told so she never had a reason to beat him again.
The only time Noah received beatings was at school, he was beaten daily because he wasn’t like the other boys he was quieter and friendlier than the other boys. He told his mother and at first his mother would actually talk to the teachers, but nothing ever changed he ended up moving around schools a lot and then his mother eventually gave up and told him “Noah I got my own problems to deal with, fight your own battles” Noah’s mother would play sick mind games, once after fighting with Noah’s father. Elle tried to commit suicide by swallowing all her pills, When Noah told his father what he saw his father made Elle spit it out, after that Noah was afraid to leave his mother alone because she would try to kill herself again.
Both of Noah’s parents never helped him with his homework, and because of that he grew up with a learning disability not being able to do the simple things like grammar or punctuation. They were really homophobic and racist they would speak bad about gays all the time and make fun of them, they would say things like gay people are going to hell, that gay people deserve to be in a mental hospital because their not right in the head. It was around that time Noah discovered he was gay, he would feel remorse for being a sinner he would pray for the gay to go away and when that didn’t happen he promised never to act on those urges and every time he had those thoughts he would hurt himself to reinforce that those thoughts were bad and that he should feel pain.
Noah’s parents would fight a lot and all the time his mother would win, one day when Noah was the age of 15 Noah’s mother waited till her husband went out on a fishing trip and she packed up her bag and made Noah pack up a bag and she ran away taking Noah with her, they left New York City and moved to Gideon city where they rebuilt their life from scratch. Living in a nice house life returned to normal, but being a teenager Noah had those urges all teens get and decided to relieve himself while watching something provocative. Noah thought he was all alone in the house sadly he wasn’t. When his mother entered his room without knocking of course, she caught Noah with his pants down and watching content she considered to be sinful. Noah’s mother beat the crap out of Noah and made him live in the basement, she threw out almost all his possessions and turned his bedroom into a hobby room, she kept him in the basement at all times.
Noah’s mother told the neighbors that Noah was sent to boarding school, and she told the education department she was home schooling him. Noah was fed every other day and was only allowed out for bathroom and shower, other than that he stayed in the basement she would call him a sinner. She would pin the guilt on him making him feel crap for being himself. Now at the age of 18 Noah’s Plus nature was triggered while his mother was taking her anger out on him and he shifted into a tiger and murdered her Noah escaped afterwards and eventually went insane from the grief and guilt he felt and along with the trauma he had been through his mind fractured and believed that he was never a human, but instead a feline.
{ OUT OF CHARACTER } |
OOC NAME:: Oblivion
ROLEPLAYING EXPERIENCE::a while on and off
ANY NOTES:: ROLEPLAY SAMPLE:: Noah had sat alone on his mattress, he leaned against the wall, the air was stale and the lighting was dim, he hated this basement this prison cell and he hated himself for his perversion. He hated that he couldn’t be the perfect son his mother deserved, that he couldn’t be right in the head where his mother could be proud to have him instead all that he was, he was a sinner…a poofter. In his mother’s words, he had been locked in this basement now for so long he didn’t even know what year it was anymore or what date. When he asked his mother all she would say is that he should be focused on changing his sinful ways instead of dates.
The teenager sighed quietly and knew his mother was right he was sick in the head and he should be focused on changing. The young teen looked at the door and saw there was a light under the door his mother was home and he breathed quietly he didn’t want to incure her wrath, as he quierly moved to the edge the mattress he pulled out a leather black book and leaned back to the wall he looked at the black book, in the past this book was like a journal he would right down thoughts and short stories, but that was before he got caught with his pants down and banished to basement hell. Noah opened the book to the last entry and saw it was a story, he began to reread over it quietly.
Ren, Hope & Despair
The story of a child who did not ask for birth, but was born anyway. A child that was raised by selfish & self centered adults, whose own siblings shunned him, an outcast. Ren never had anyone throughout his life he was alone and shunned, in order to survive Ren made his heart harder, colder and stronger. Ren stood in the shadows cold and alone always wanting the things he could never have. Throughout the years of watching in the shadows Ren's heart became frozen in ice, he had forgotten what it was to have emotions...to feel, although he smiled and appeared to be happy it was nothing, but an empty and shallow act. No one saw Ren or the pain he felt, the lifelessness in his eyes, no one saw anything.
One day Ren found a friend a fellow student named Hope. the two had hit things off splendidly, they bonded and although Ren had Hope his heart remained un-melted, The two boys became close and for the first time Ren had someone to speak to, someone who cared about him. The friendship between the two eventually blossomed into something much more. One day Hope confessed his love for Ren. Ren had found him self shocked and confessed to Hope, that he did not love him, and before he could explain Hope ran away. The next day Ren arrived to a school full of gossip, it was there he learned Hope had committed suicide by drowning himself in a lake. Hearing the news Ren wept in despair, his only friend, the only person who valued his existence had departed for the other side, death by broken heart.
Ren attended Hope's funeral to discover only Hope's parents were there, and that was only for a few minutes. Ren realized that Hope was like him in many ways, alone and unloved and just when he thought he had found love. His love rejected him. Ren despaired and wept endlessly, no one could understand his pain. One day the pain became too much. Ren borrowed one of his mother's kitchen knifes and walked to town where he purchased six roses. Ren went to the lake and pulled out the rose petals and held them in his hand, as the wind blew from behind him Ren opened his fist and watched the petals leave his hand and float with the wind until they eventually fell onto the water. Ren bent over and picked up the kitchen knife he borrowed from his mother's kitchen. "I am sorry Hope, if I was capable of love.... I would have picked you, you saved me, you gave me so much, now it's my turn I want to be with you forever, you died because I broke you're heart, let me break mine... so we can be together" Ren had spoken out hoping beyond all reason and logic that Hope could hear him. Closing his eyes Ren placed the knife over his heart, he felt the cold breeze of the wind blow against him and with one swift thrust agony was felt, within moments blood came from Ren's lips as he drifted forward off balance and fell into the lake. With one mighty effort Ren pulled out the knife from his chest and watched as the blood poured from his body and he sank to the bottom of the lake, as Ren sank to the bottom of the lake he watched his blood pollute the lake and after closing his eyes, Ren heard something a soft and gentle laughter when he opened his eyes, his vision was blurry everything was dark with the exception of a hand reaching out for him.
Seeing the hand had given Ren a sense of hope and with everything he had left he dropped the knife and reached out for that hand, reached out on that chance to be reunited with the only person in the world who knew and understood the real Ren. This is the story of a child who did not ask for birth, who was alone, but was given salvation by a glimmer of hope, and once hope was lost he despaired he was consumed by eternal darkness.
Written by Noah Woods
Noah closed the book, and his eyes was teary as his heart thumped in his chest he had created hope and ren, because both of them had aspects of himself into it, he breathed and decided as much as he loved his mother, as much as he wanted to be the perfect son for her…he couldn’t, he was what he was and all he wanted was freedom. Noah had heard the footsteps walk towards the basement door and he stood up, he held the book in his hand and he snuck up the stairs, he wasn’t thinking about it anymore, his body acted on it’s own the door opened and he ran the rest of the way up shoving his mother out of the way he bolted towards the door, the kitchen light stung his eyes with how bright it was, but he pushed on as he ran to the back door he opened it and he saw it was night time, the teenager ran with the light no longer stinging his eyes, he moved as fast as his feet could carry him.
The teenager clutched onto his book, and when he looked back he could see his mother pursuing him he felt fear shiver down his spine as he sure her angry face. He looked forward and kept running, at the first alley he saw he turned into which unfortunately lead to a dead end he looked back and his mother had walked in she was blocking his exit as she walked towards him she picked up a steel pipe on the ground and the teenager flinched he had bad memories coming back to him. Noah looked at his mother and felt that fear paralyze him “mom…I am not going back, I am not going to let you lock me away anymore…im sorry I know I am wrong and I tried to change I really did, but I can’t….im not going home with you mom….I am not going back” he spoke trying to sound brave, but it was clear he was afraid of her.
Noah had watched as his mother tightened her grip on the pipe and she had inches from him and had spoken cruelly“you’re not my son…my son died years ago…all you are is a filthy sinner that must pay for his sins. Leviticus 20:13 - "If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman, both of them have done what is detestable. They must be put to death; their blood will be on their own heads“ She spoke and Noah shivered she lifted the pipe and tried to whack him in the head with it, Noah had dropped his book and caught her hand struggling against her, she had kicked Noah in the gut which made the teenager gasp and fall to his knees, he looked up at his mother and saw hatred in her eyes, she smacked him in the gut with the pipe and in the head knocking the teenager on the ground.
In a flash the tiger woke up and grumbled quietly the feline had that disturbing dream again, the feline had no idea why, but there would be times where he would dream about a human male..a weak human male where the breeders would hurt him it was a troubling dream, but he shrugged it off it had nothing to do with him, humans were not his problem, he stretched his paws and went for a walk in the neighbourhood it was pitch black and he was looking for food, lately food had become pretty scarce and hard to come by at night, the humans would retreat inside after nightfall and their pets too. fang gave a growl as he laid on a wall waiting for a human or animal to come out, this would be the third night without food if nothing came out. he frowned for a moment as his stomach growled. Fang continued to watch the streets waiting for the prey to come out, he thought of the last human he ate…the human tasted strange rather bitter from the beer he drank. He hoped that the next meal would taste better.
ROLEPLAYING EXPERIENCE::a while on and off
ANY NOTES:: ROLEPLAY SAMPLE:: Noah had sat alone on his mattress, he leaned against the wall, the air was stale and the lighting was dim, he hated this basement this prison cell and he hated himself for his perversion. He hated that he couldn’t be the perfect son his mother deserved, that he couldn’t be right in the head where his mother could be proud to have him instead all that he was, he was a sinner…a poofter. In his mother’s words, he had been locked in this basement now for so long he didn’t even know what year it was anymore or what date. When he asked his mother all she would say is that he should be focused on changing his sinful ways instead of dates.
The teenager sighed quietly and knew his mother was right he was sick in the head and he should be focused on changing. The young teen looked at the door and saw there was a light under the door his mother was home and he breathed quietly he didn’t want to incure her wrath, as he quierly moved to the edge the mattress he pulled out a leather black book and leaned back to the wall he looked at the black book, in the past this book was like a journal he would right down thoughts and short stories, but that was before he got caught with his pants down and banished to basement hell. Noah opened the book to the last entry and saw it was a story, he began to reread over it quietly.
Ren, Hope & Despair
The story of a child who did not ask for birth, but was born anyway. A child that was raised by selfish & self centered adults, whose own siblings shunned him, an outcast. Ren never had anyone throughout his life he was alone and shunned, in order to survive Ren made his heart harder, colder and stronger. Ren stood in the shadows cold and alone always wanting the things he could never have. Throughout the years of watching in the shadows Ren's heart became frozen in ice, he had forgotten what it was to have emotions...to feel, although he smiled and appeared to be happy it was nothing, but an empty and shallow act. No one saw Ren or the pain he felt, the lifelessness in his eyes, no one saw anything.
One day Ren found a friend a fellow student named Hope. the two had hit things off splendidly, they bonded and although Ren had Hope his heart remained un-melted, The two boys became close and for the first time Ren had someone to speak to, someone who cared about him. The friendship between the two eventually blossomed into something much more. One day Hope confessed his love for Ren. Ren had found him self shocked and confessed to Hope, that he did not love him, and before he could explain Hope ran away. The next day Ren arrived to a school full of gossip, it was there he learned Hope had committed suicide by drowning himself in a lake. Hearing the news Ren wept in despair, his only friend, the only person who valued his existence had departed for the other side, death by broken heart.
Ren attended Hope's funeral to discover only Hope's parents were there, and that was only for a few minutes. Ren realized that Hope was like him in many ways, alone and unloved and just when he thought he had found love. His love rejected him. Ren despaired and wept endlessly, no one could understand his pain. One day the pain became too much. Ren borrowed one of his mother's kitchen knifes and walked to town where he purchased six roses. Ren went to the lake and pulled out the rose petals and held them in his hand, as the wind blew from behind him Ren opened his fist and watched the petals leave his hand and float with the wind until they eventually fell onto the water. Ren bent over and picked up the kitchen knife he borrowed from his mother's kitchen. "I am sorry Hope, if I was capable of love.... I would have picked you, you saved me, you gave me so much, now it's my turn I want to be with you forever, you died because I broke you're heart, let me break mine... so we can be together" Ren had spoken out hoping beyond all reason and logic that Hope could hear him. Closing his eyes Ren placed the knife over his heart, he felt the cold breeze of the wind blow against him and with one swift thrust agony was felt, within moments blood came from Ren's lips as he drifted forward off balance and fell into the lake. With one mighty effort Ren pulled out the knife from his chest and watched as the blood poured from his body and he sank to the bottom of the lake, as Ren sank to the bottom of the lake he watched his blood pollute the lake and after closing his eyes, Ren heard something a soft and gentle laughter when he opened his eyes, his vision was blurry everything was dark with the exception of a hand reaching out for him.
Seeing the hand had given Ren a sense of hope and with everything he had left he dropped the knife and reached out for that hand, reached out on that chance to be reunited with the only person in the world who knew and understood the real Ren. This is the story of a child who did not ask for birth, who was alone, but was given salvation by a glimmer of hope, and once hope was lost he despaired he was consumed by eternal darkness.
Written by Noah Woods
Noah closed the book, and his eyes was teary as his heart thumped in his chest he had created hope and ren, because both of them had aspects of himself into it, he breathed and decided as much as he loved his mother, as much as he wanted to be the perfect son for her…he couldn’t, he was what he was and all he wanted was freedom. Noah had heard the footsteps walk towards the basement door and he stood up, he held the book in his hand and he snuck up the stairs, he wasn’t thinking about it anymore, his body acted on it’s own the door opened and he ran the rest of the way up shoving his mother out of the way he bolted towards the door, the kitchen light stung his eyes with how bright it was, but he pushed on as he ran to the back door he opened it and he saw it was night time, the teenager ran with the light no longer stinging his eyes, he moved as fast as his feet could carry him.
The teenager clutched onto his book, and when he looked back he could see his mother pursuing him he felt fear shiver down his spine as he sure her angry face. He looked forward and kept running, at the first alley he saw he turned into which unfortunately lead to a dead end he looked back and his mother had walked in she was blocking his exit as she walked towards him she picked up a steel pipe on the ground and the teenager flinched he had bad memories coming back to him. Noah looked at his mother and felt that fear paralyze him “mom…I am not going back, I am not going to let you lock me away anymore…im sorry I know I am wrong and I tried to change I really did, but I can’t….im not going home with you mom….I am not going back” he spoke trying to sound brave, but it was clear he was afraid of her.
Noah had watched as his mother tightened her grip on the pipe and she had inches from him and had spoken cruelly“you’re not my son…my son died years ago…all you are is a filthy sinner that must pay for his sins. Leviticus 20:13 - "If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman, both of them have done what is detestable. They must be put to death; their blood will be on their own heads“ She spoke and Noah shivered she lifted the pipe and tried to whack him in the head with it, Noah had dropped his book and caught her hand struggling against her, she had kicked Noah in the gut which made the teenager gasp and fall to his knees, he looked up at his mother and saw hatred in her eyes, she smacked him in the gut with the pipe and in the head knocking the teenager on the ground.
In a flash the tiger woke up and grumbled quietly the feline had that disturbing dream again, the feline had no idea why, but there would be times where he would dream about a human male..a weak human male where the breeders would hurt him it was a troubling dream, but he shrugged it off it had nothing to do with him, humans were not his problem, he stretched his paws and went for a walk in the neighbourhood it was pitch black and he was looking for food, lately food had become pretty scarce and hard to come by at night, the humans would retreat inside after nightfall and their pets too. fang gave a growl as he laid on a wall waiting for a human or animal to come out, this would be the third night without food if nothing came out. he frowned for a moment as his stomach growled. Fang continued to watch the streets waiting for the prey to come out, he thought of the last human he ate…the human tasted strange rather bitter from the beer he drank. He hoped that the next meal would taste better.